The Greatest Son Ever

For soooooooooo very very long there was nothing more I wanted than a Little dog. I talked about it ,did research about different small breeds and then went to the pet store and omgness these little dogs cost about 1 months rent. we all know what happened next.......... I left the pet shop with a lion head rabbit we later named Thumper (may he rest in peace). Disappointed in some way that I couldn't walk, dress up, or train my new pet yet happy I had something to keep me company while the kids were at school. A month later I saw one of the saddest commercials ever( to this day I turn from it because it brings me to tears) for the A.S.P.C.A. and I wanted to adopt a pet. I couldn't afford it at this time because I was giving my son a birthday party in school. Robert Jr. had a great birthday and I was happy about that and he got alot of money for his birthday so he was happy too. A week later as I was sitting on my couch I saw the commercial again and me and my son teared up(we are both animal lovers) and he looked at me and said Mommy we should go there and save a little dog like the one you wanted and I can keep Thumper. I told him I spent all my money on Thumper and his birthday and he went in his room. the next morning he woke me up and said were going to get a dog today I got all my birthday money! He got his father's pay stub , the mail, and his envelope and sat on the stoop till I was ready, we got on the train and went to the A.S.P.C.A. My son said to me on the train I want to get you a dog to make you happy because everyone makes you cry. I replied it's okay that's life but I am happy because I have a 9 year old son that didn't think of candy,pokemon cards or a new toy,he thought of a way to make me happy and I am truly Blessed to have a son like you.

Blood isn't glue it doesn't make bonds

I just don't understand why I just don't matter to anyone. Why is it so easy for me to remember and so easy for others to forget? For years (17) I held on to my memories of when I had a close family, my lil cousins (some older) and when we used to play together. I remember my aunts doing my hair or trying to because I am tender headed. I remember playing with the neighbors on their block even (Brandy and her daughter Courtney who they probably remember too),Eli,Dawud whom I later found out were my cousin yet I remember. I remember a lady Ms.Sykes she had a dear in her yard lol it was fake n still there today might I add even though she is not. Though I have all my memories ( I only named a few) nobody remembers me. Nobody knows who I am, I was just left behind. It hurts so badly, you ride the bus and see your cousin and they have no idea who you are. Your Aunts calling you other people names , your own father adopting two children yet never being apart of your life....or your children in fact having children a year older than your oldest(his ONLY grand children I think) I grew up scared to date because I didn't know if guys were related to me or not. Being reunited with my family was the most painful thing in the world I ever went through. Ca you imagine wanting to hug your cousin or aunt or uncle and they ask Who are You yet everyone else in the room they know I still cry like I'm doing now and yes it still hurts. I missed them so much just to find out I was dismissed, replaced,never missed,never thought about I apologize for the one reader of my blog which my family doesn't read because its me and I'm only blood there is no bond but I can't complete this blog i didn't realize how painful it will be

Vow is a Vow until it's broken

What is a vow? A vow is a promise or agreement made by one person to another. Most people take their vows before God, make them to God, or to their fellow man. The most commonly taken vows are the marriage vows made to God from a man and woman who love each other and promise to love each other,honor,cherish,obey,forsaking all others and not letting man put together what God has joined together. You know the whole 2 becoming 1 thing.......but what about when either the man or woman breaks that vow they took before God? If a man or woman cheats,lies put other people before their spouse and break their vows should they still consider their marriage valid in God's eyes? If I were to vow never to eat meat again and I eat a cheeseburger ten years later have I not broken my vow? Is that vow therefore valid ? Should I repent and retake that vow if I don't plan on ever eating meat again, or should I just continue eating meat because one cheeseburger or nine won't make a difference because the vow was broken with the first bite. why is marriage any different oooooohhhhhhhhhh yeah that's right it's not about the vows its about the paper the state gives you. If a husband cheats on his wife and breaks his vow to her that he took before God why should the wife in turn still have to be married to this man until the papers are signed? If your wedding vows have been broken that's it in God's eyes their is no more marriage. If someone was to break a promise to you ,you can't still hold them to it !!!!! I say F%@! it why spend your life miserable with your so called spouse because you cant afford a lawyer that is going to tell you whether or not you can be free or not. God is not looking at your relationship as a marriage its a sham!!!! Either make amends start over fresh or go your own separate ways. I'm going to do me all day every day I live by God's law not mans , only god can judge me.

the Off Beat dad

Tooo many men suffer from (even the black ones) being off beat when it comes to their kids. They are not dead beats that don't remember their kids birthdays , haven't seen them in months, don't pay child support and got Maury on speed dial. I am specifically talking about the men that show up to the birthday parties,graduations ,know their kids birthday,already taken the D.N.A test lol,and even give them a dollar when they see them or better yet take them to the store(ballin). However they come around, play with the kids a few minutes show up for special occasions that the mom did allllllllllllllllll the work for and paid for it too. So what you showed up to sing happy birthday ,you didn't buy the cake or even bring a gift yet you got your chest poked out when you see how good their mom made them look. what in the hell are you guy's problem? Your still not a father you just assisted in the making. If you have never taken your son to the park to play basketball with him or turned a rope for your daughter to jump, been up all night when they had a cold your still not a father your a step up from dead and notice I said A step. if the mothers are doing everything for the kids that you walking around with picture in your wallet and have no idea if they are allergic to peanuts your just as sorry as the dead beats. Paying child support Doesn't make you a father nor does visiting them once in a blue. Benjamin's don't change no pampers ,Franklin,Jefferson don't cook or clean and never once took my kids to schoool. Where do men get off calling themselves father's when your kids have closer relationships with the neighbor than you,atleast they see them everyday and might even walk to school with them while your at work or still sleep laying up with some chick and taking better care of her kids than your own.Shame Shame Shame . Don't be mad when your kids grow up and don't appreciate all the sneaker you bought them. Love doesn't cost a thing.

Mans Law and God's law

For some reason alot of people seem to get mans law and God's law confused. Everyone whether they admit it or not take heed to mans law from fear of jail time,yet there are few who think of which commandment their action might be breaking. Why are people so ignorant that they fear doing time in jail but not their souls going to hell (for those that believe). Burn for eternity or a 5 to 10 bid hmmmmm I guess it is easier to play now and pay later. This is really deep because the goverment has it to where you dont have to be moral just politically correct. There are only two sides and the goverment is not on the right one. for instance I feel that a marriage should be what it is supposed to be and not a goverment issued piece of paper, a pre -nump ,or so dam expensive to get out of ,sheesh a license(because the goverment said you need a license to love someone and commit to them) is only $25-$30 BUT a divorce smh like the commercial priceless. Where in the bible does it say pay 25 buck take your vows before God and sign this so the goverment can acknowledge it? i just wish people would wake up. I some states by law you can get married at 13 to your first cousin, have a wedding and everything with your fam all around the trailer,take vows before God I mean get a legal document and go on to have plenty of "special "children. It's our choice ,we have to make it .Who's laws are you living by ?

WTF

Why is it that females feel that they look sooooooooo good they can call the next female ugly? I cant stand a chick with fake hair ,fake nails, skimpy clothes and an attitude walking around like she the shit when you need half your ass hanging out for attention yet a female that doesn't dress and act the way they do is a bum! My definition of ugly is their attitudes about themselves and other people and like my mama said beauty is only skin deep. LOL can anyone say HATERS!!!!! what are these chicks problem ? why are you so worried about the girl that hair is in a ponytail ,that wear jeans and sneakers,that doesnt get her nails done,that doesnt look like a drag queen with those fake eyelashes? take off the mask ladies and be how and who God created you to be.Those who matter don't judge and those who judge don't matter and thats all that matters.